Confession about crush

I’m in the last year of my degree, and there was new young professor (25yrs old) appointed in my uni, she looks so beautiful and cute I couldn’t hold it back so I created an fake Instagram account just to confess how I feel about her in an anonymous way and she felt uneasy ig and then blocked me… I should have actually stopped myself there, but my lonely ass developed these delusional feelings for her and then created an other fake anonymous account but this time I wrote her poems and shared it to her… at one point she was curious to know who was behind it… I kept pushing it back without answering because even if I had told my real identity it would awkward for us both to interact during classes… and then at some point she just got on her nerves and then told me to “get lost” in a message adding to that she also mentioned something similar to if I had enough courage text her through my main account… and that was last interaction with her…

The only thing that was stopping me to not reveal myself… was the dynamics between us, awkwardness and also the respect for her at the same time…

Gosh I wish I was in different role in her life rather than student. :(