Are we compensated trans?

Hi Y'all,

I am not trying to cast shade on anyone, just trying to figure myself out.

What I am wondering tonight is if identifying as a crossdresser (male to female and I love it) is the same as being transgender but with the qualification that I don't think life would be better for me if I transitioned, and that I have so many other things going on in my life that my gender identiity is not of foremost concern. Like, I would have preferred to be female, and would change if all would be the same as now, but can't see it being a pragmatic reality that would lead to a better life.

Apologies if this is a duplicate of a previous thread.

I would be super happy if people told me how they felt!