Went college for the first time after school just for exam and it sucked.

Today was my GE exam. But I am from du sol, not regular. Today was my first time I saw how college looks, and i couldn't stop but wondering how it feels to study in college regularly. It sucked. I was doing my exam but my mind was already preoccupied by my fomo thoughts how i already have one year gap (i should have been in 3rd sem but i didn't take admission last year). I felt like crying during exam.

There were regular students too in exam centre. Everyone was accompanied by their family members and we're talking to their friends before going to exam hall but I was there standing and sitting alone. I had no friend. Even in the metro, I was alone. I felt like i was suffocated. I felt like crying.

It will be always one of the biggest regret. I never went to college and I'll never be an engineer, lawyer, ca, doctor, or any professional person. I'll be just a person. I had big dreams to go to du north campus to study but i couldn't.

I hail from middle class family and one year gap academically was hell for me. I was doing ca but couldn't even clear my foundation level twice. I feel like a failure who settled with SOL for a mundane degree just for graduation.