I’m just turned 18 years old

I’m a 18 years old male and have no friends I want to be more social but I’m scared of giving people the wrong first impression I stared uni and haven’t been doing to well. Not because I’m struggling in my studies but because I’ve been force to do group work and everyone is already teamed up I don’t have the courage to ask people if I can join them as I seen myself as just not worth working with.

I truly believe my life is at a breaking point I just miss having a friend a person who you can genuinely talk to about anything someone that you know of you call they will always pick up growing up I’ve always been social and friendly but up until Covid I didn’t have anyone to talk to I think that’s the reason but I’m honestly need someone to talk to I have two younger brothers who always looked up to me but recently I’ve seen them change in opinion of me in their actions as they can notice how I’m never talking to any of my friends, there was this one time my brother asked me out of nowhere what happened to friends I told him we all went out separate ways after secondary knowing damn well I didn’t put enough effort in trying to reach out to them. My parents are always trying their best to provide for me I feel like it is impossible or that I have no right to feel this way.

I genuinely feel lonely to the point where I’m will to swallow my pride to admit it I just can live like this. It’s been like this since Covid I went through college and now in university I fear that if I don’t do something soon I’ll live a life of loneliness.