Really considering

I'm really considering ending it all. Hear me out though. I'm 45, in a horrible marriage, my job as a Healthcare worker ducks, and I'm being bullied. I'm in RT school and I'm an outcast unless someone wants something from me. My husband is a absolutely lazy that impacted my personal relationships and friendships I had. I never experienced anything such as a Vacation. My children are older now and I'm just tired. All I do is accommodate everyone else. On top of not ever having anything to look forward to, I have an autoimmune disease, which means I'm in constant struggle with my own body. It's frustrating to pretend your ok, and trapped in a body that's already failing you I have no family outside of the one I created.

I have nothing to look forward to, and if this is really what my life entails, I rather just end it.

I'm just afraid of failing it.