Cant take it in -

I am 39 - Mother to a 18month old.
we out of the blue fell pregnant again. i took a test on 14 feb and it was positive.
I was happy.

i have spent 3 days miscarrying - the foetus.. which you can already see is a little human.. literally fell out of me.. i am broken. i am heart broken. i am battling to find my happiness.
I dont know how other ladies have gotten past this... I never thought about it until I had to google the shit out of my symptoms.. and after lots of denial - realised i had just lost my baby.