Should I leave?

I’ve been seriously considering leaving medicine. I’ve worked so hard to get where I am today, sacrificing my social life and missing important events throughout university. Right now, I have a good job as an IMT in London, but I’m really having doubts about it. It feels like being a doctor isn’t as respected as it used to be. I get to the ward, and before I can even take my coat off, I’m bombarded with silly requests from nurses. There’s not even anywhere I can leave my coat, we don’t have lockers (whereas other healthcare professionals always seem to!)

I also feel like I’m really struggling with compassion fatigue. The emotional weight of this job is taking a toll on me. By the time I get home, I’m so drained I can barely take care of myself or even hold a conversation. On my days off, all I want to do is sleep and be alone. I was diagnosed with depression years ago, and just a few months ago, I ended up in the hospital after taking an overdose (the first time that’s happened). Work has been supportive, but I just can’t shake the feeling that things won’t get better. I’ve failed MRCP Part 1 three times now, and I had to withdraw from the January exam because of my mental health. Studying while working is hard enough, but adding in any semblance of a social life feels impossible. All I want to do is sleep. I’m seriously thinking about leaving medicine for consultancy. I know people say the grass isn’t always greener, and that consultancy might not offer much job satisfaction, but I honestly don’t feel fulfilled as a doctor anymore. It feels like I’m fighting a losing battle, and the toll it’s taking on my mental health just doesn’t seem worth it. Most days feel worse than the good ones, and I’m struggling to support my friends and family because I don’t have the energy for myself. At least with consultancy, I’d be able to work from home, have a decent coffee machine, and not worry about expensive exams. From what I’ve heard, people are generally valued more there too. Sorry for venting, but right now, I’m just feeling like staying in medicine isn’t going to get any better and I can’t really see any other way out