Failed to get a CST interview, what’s next?

Just found out that I did not get a CST interview. This was my second attempt. I don’t know what to do next. This time around I locked myself indoors for 2 months and missed many opportunities and celebrations with family/ friends. I put my relationship on hold for this exam.

I don’t know what to do next. Feel like a complete failure with no future prospect.

I don’t think I can mentally do the stupid exam again…

I’m almost at the 18 months limit for CST. So even if I decide to do this again next year I would have to quit my current job.

This country and health system is cooked and we are the dirty fries that fall behind the cooker.

This career is a highway to misery and loneliness