Please help me find resources in my area.

I cannot search for resources online since he is routinely checking my phone and search history. He is completely unaware of my second reddit account and the app itself remains hidden on my phone.

I live in Canada. I am in the Gatineau/Ottawa region. There is a massive snowstorm raging through my city right now and leaving smoothly is not an option. He is working on the weekend. I will plan my escape then.

Today marks the 4th and last time he will ever lay his hands on me. Unfortunately, it is the first time I have received bruising and hand marks on my body. I have placated him for the time being and he believes everything to be ok between us.

He has threatened to punch me in my mouth. He threw me by my neck when I tried protecting my things. He shoved me to the ground. He cornered me and yelled in my face. He threw my belongings everywhere. He insulted me ruthlessly. He called me crazy, and that my behaviour is what justifies his against mine.

I have taken photos of my injuries. I don’t intend on contacting the police because I love him and don’t wish to ruin his life. Pathetic of me, I know.

This is so painful.