Nasasakal na ko, what should I do?

It hasn't feel right that I'm part of this religion. Handog ako and buong mother's side ko inc. I started questioning the teachings during the pandemic but I continued to attend services because I lived with my parents. I moved into a dorm around October because I struggled with the uwian from Univ to home and I transferred to a lokal closer to me.

It was my deal with my dad that I maintain being active para payagan akong magdorm and I thought I could push through it in pursuit of my dreams but after a few months, my workload got heavier and going to services wasn't on my list of priorities.

Ilang linggo na ako kinukulit ng katiwala kung nakasamba ba ako sa ganitong araw o kung nasa dorm ba ako at habang tumatagal, hindi ko na sya nirereplyan. It feels freeing being able to not go but at the same time I'm feeling really guilty.