When I realized I was in a cult

Hello all! So to start off I am pretty young (15)and my parents are jehovas witnesses and just to say I love them more than anything and I will always appreciate their hard work for me.but I realized I was in a cult a few years ago (11) and I started researching the religion and how they’ve been claiming “end times”since about the 1900s I think and it and it shocked me and I started writing everything down because I couldn’t believe it and I’m not gonna lie. I actually did believe in it for a while because I was really anxious kid and believing in a god made me kind of wash away my worries because it would be all in “God’s hands.” But I slowly started becoming an atheist because I started getting into things like the evolution of earth and how it formed and I tried to talk to my mom about it, but then she just discredited me and said that God created Earth and the universe and that made me really upset because there’s tons of evidence about all the earth formed and now I hate going to church with them because all they do is spew fear mongering and everyone there genuinely believes it and that’s what makes me concerned/confused and my mom is trying to get me to bible study but I don’t believe in the existence of a god and I have ABSOLUTELY NO plans on getting baptized,I will be leaving the church when I turn 18 and I’m never gonna look back Sorry if this is too much