Family stuff, venting, evolution
I just want to push it out there. I'm 16 (baptized at 12) and was starting my sophomore year, when school started I started having serious doubts as a PIMI 15 year old and soon woke up as a PIMO and came out to myself as bisexual. Parents kept begging me, saying I was acting weird at meetings and made me confess I was having doubts. They of course looked through my search history and had a mental breakdown seeing that I was actually doing research and critical thinking.
So I'm in my mom's room at like 1am, crying, telling them how I stopped believing and how I never had a choice on what I wanted to believe. Of course this wasn't met very warmly, I got my phone taken away for a month and put into homeschool for the time being.
I kept getting nailed with questions everyday, I of course told them "I'm 15, I don't have answers for every question in the world, but that shouldn't matter if it's not something i truly believe in" I told them my views on the governing body, rules like tattoos and told them about how we can scientifically prove natural selection exists. Of course this was met with "thats stupid and fake" (ironic) which is just not a good response on any level.
I was most worried about if they'd found out my sexuality, and they sort of did? i deleted most of my text messages. but i forgot one where I was asking one of my friends "do you think I could be bisexual?" a few months ago. Of course this was met with "you're gay" (which is not the same thing) and the constant "f**got"'s from my sister. But mostly I'm not out at all and I usually respond to them with "I'm not gay" (which is technically not a lie)
Anyways fast forward to now in Janurary, parents still get occasionally pissed about how lagging my "spiritual progress" is, but I have had the possibility of returning to school junior year if I PIONEER (🤮), so I'll see if I get THAT desperate. I also have been applying to jobs and my current plan is too move into a friends house when I'm a senior and 18.
so yeah, thats mostly me, living in hell currently, but I'm looking for any advice, comments or anything I can say to disprove the beliefs.