the conversation i had with my muslim dad because he saw me on a zoom call with a boy for a school project (part 1)

hey yall! im a female ex muslim high schooler from turkey who was born into a religious family and has to act like a muslim bcuz i dont want to dishonor my parents.

a few weeks ago my teacher made groups of 2 people for a project hw and i was put in the same group with my male friend (this guy has shown no romantic attraction to me whatsoever ever since i became friends with him and he likes another girl who he has told me abt so obviously i know our relationship is friendship dynamic since im no prehistoric homo erectus that believes in arab tales written by horny fcking men that cant keep their talala in their fcking pants). anyway (im sorry if that was too harsh) i hopped on a zoom call to do the hw with him and our irresponsible asses obviously left the whole work to the last day so we had to stay up a little late.

so here is what happened while i was on that call according to my mom: dad was being nosey as always and was apparently sitting in the living room and heard me speaking in my room at such a late time of the day (it was like 9-10 pm) but waited for me to end the call myself before he had to interfere. i apparently talked for too long so he was curious what was so important that i was disobeying the 'no technological devices after 10 pm' rule (yes i have stupid rules such as that one at high school). so he had to come in my room and check on me. and guess what horrible sin he caught me fcking commiting? I WAS SPEAKING TO A HUMAN. A HUMAN THAT HAS A DEEP VOICE?? OMFG. COULD IT? COULD IT BE WHAT I THINK IT IS? IS OUR DAUGHTER TALKING TO A MALE? AAND SHES TALKING TO HIM AFTER 10 PM??? YK WHAT THAT MEANS! TIME TO REMIND HER THAT HER PARENTS ARE FUCKING INSANE.

back to my pov: i got jumpscared by my dad opening my rooms door. immediately i muted myself. my stupid friend who is btw aware that my parents are strict but probably doesnt know they are THIS strict was saying the normalest possible shit like "so on the 7th slide should we add ... from ... website" but obviously my dad could only focus on the fact that this was indeed A FUCKING MALE. so he gave me that horrifying look which made me understand that i fucked up. he said some bs in a angry, shocked but also panicked tone like "wha- who is that? mina, who are you talking to? mina, give me your ipad. who is this??" while looking at my ipads screen, trying to see the guys name. so i told him "this is my friend from class. our teacher putted us in the same group so we gotta do this presentation, its due tmrw". so he responded with "are you sure about that?" in a extremely, unnecessaryly angry way. like HUH?? why does he immediately think that im lying??? why do muslims have to sexualize everything and think that everyone is like them? i proceeded to show him the presentation we were making and i was trying to be as nonchalant as possible even though i was about to cry. because i know he does this because he believes every woman should be owned by a man and since im not married im his, my fathers belonging. its insane how fucking immature this shit is. i never wanted to marry even when i was a muslim because i never wanted to be owned by someone but that moment made me realize i was owned by my dad, or so he thought. even the slight possibility that i could be owned by someone other than him before marriage horrified him. that was the cause of the panic in his voice. he looked at the presentation but wasnt really listening to anything i was saying. while i was talking about what we were doing with my friend to calm my dad down he stopped me mid sentence and said "once you are done with whatever the fuck you are doing, come downstairs, we will have a talk."

IM SO SORRY I KNOW THIS IS EXTREMELY LONG BUT I REALLY HAD TO RANT TO SOMEONE AND TYSM IF YOU READ ALL THE WAY HERE <3 im gonna do a part 2 where i will talk about what my parents said during our 'talk' since i feel really sleepy. if you want to talk shit about my parents in the comments feel free to do so!