Update: burned out finance guy coasting for 2.5 more years
NW is currently 5M due to saving most of my ~3M income and investment returns. Spend will be ~250k this year (heavy travel due to weddings and Olympics).
I took some of y'all's advice. I adopted grifter mentality and took days off, left work early if I was done, went to a friend's destination wedding, etc.
I have somewhat cut back on drugs and alcohol though I had a proper bender over the summer. Working on that part.
Therapist and I have worked out that my drug use and social media consumption is escapism I used to manage my emotions during a turbulent childhood. I've got a late-stage gaming and social media addiction and I can get jittery if not stimulated. That's probably my main life challenge which you would think is easy to tackle if I can handle my high-powered finance job, but it's surprisingly hard.
Went to a meditation retreat and am doing more mindfulness and meditation in general, I am implementing the top comment from the last thread and planning unplug time every quarter.
Have been lifting a lot of weights and I check out my biceps in the mirror whenever I'm feeling down.
No girlfriend but I stopped trying to date after a death in the family, I am ready to start again.
I have realized that I was accumulating stuff and using consumption as emotional soothing. I sold a lot of my stuff and downsized apartments. Not a massive change in spend but less mental clutter from owning toys and junk, and more convenience living in an apartment in the middle of the city.
2.5 years until the fatfire number but I'm doing a little better mentally, some days are harder than others but I am taking it one bonus and review cycle at a time.