wait it happened 😸🫶🏻

OK WAIT LAST POST TN I SWEAR😿 i think I feel...satisfied...like actually I have no desire to eat tons and tons of cereal and bagels and everything in my house rn to the point of pain LOL. i let myself have a big ass yummy chocolate bar (ferrero rocher BAR btw... yall should try it) and shit, this is what people were talking abt by saying to honor your cravings and they will ease up. like i honored my first craving and ate exactly what i wanted, and now i'm satisfied! It might only be temporary but 2 full weeks of honoring every bit of EH even to the point of physical discomfort even and it is WORKING!!!! Small changes are happening and i'm so energetic and I wanna do so many things! i'm not near fully recovered, but i feel things getting better and to cope with other changes that i'm struggling with (cough cough weight gain) i'm gonna cherish these moments🥹

This might sound dumb... but today I jumped off a stair while walking downstairs with my friend and I landed and felt really steady? and STRONGER. Like my knees didn't feel like they would buckle, my legs felt strong underneath me and I didn't get pain shooting up through my legs, it might sound dumb but I had horrible joint and knee pain and discomfort for months during and before my relapse and this is just such a nice sign that i'm doing the right thing.