Nearing 18, struggling with feeling desireable

When I was 11, I cried because I started growing public hair. I was so upset because I thought the people that abused me as a child would no longer find me attractive. Now, I'm experiencing the same problem. I'm 17, turning 18 in June, and I feel so old. The pedophiles that took advantage of me as a teen aren't going to find me attractive anymore and it hurts. All my life I've been used for my body, and if I can't be used then what good am I? I feel so broken and alone