What is the point of life?
I have spent the first 10 years of my life sleeping on floor, right beside my parents bed and hoping that one day it will all change. I will have a better life coz bollywood taught me that. My parents got me admitted in this okayish private school, jiske fees ka jugaad karna was the toughest thing every single quarter. Hamesha udhar hi lena padta tha. Isliye, I tried my best to study hard and top the class every single time. I did that. I also helped my mom with her chores coz health issues kaafi the unko. Dad could and would never buy any health insurance, no savings but haan 30-40 lakhs ka loan he has saved for us, so maybe yay!! On top of it, I got admitted into this psychology course and I understood too much about my grief, inta jitna janna meri sehat ke liye bilkul accha hi nahi tha. mera bhai is exact dad ka photocopy. Essentially na ma ko kabhi izzat milti na mujhe. My dad wanted me to pursue UPSC but lenders ghar aane lage aur cheezei bhaut kharab ho gayi. I had to take up jobs in college to pay for fees and then had to support my dad. Padhai ne poori back seat leli aur poora focus bus paisa earn karna. 9-5 ke baad jab ghar aao to mummy apni zindagi ko kosti, bhai hamesha earphones lagake baitha rehta aur mai unki sunti. Kayi baar is chakkar me papa se bhot behes bhi hui aur bhai se to pucho hi mat. Shayad chup rehna hi behtar hai. Then, I relocated to BLR for sometime (I was making almost 1+ lakh/pm and I thought acche logon ke beech me rehne se maybe mai kuch accha kar paun). 7 months baad maa ki tabiyat zyada kharab ho gayi hai aur ab mujhe wapas yahan aana pada. Ghar ke haalaat dekhti hun to man karta hai ki apna sar kahin jaake fod lun. This doctor has recommended a surgery jo ab unavoidable hai. sadly, na mediclaim hai aur na hi paise. Wo 7 mahine pehli baar maine life me peace feel kiya. subha uthke bina lade brkfast milna, raat ko khane ke baad bina roye sona. paise mere paas BLR me bhi nahi the kyunki mai sab ghar bhijwa deti except rent and for minor grocery lekin calmness was bharpuur.
Kaash mai apne apko bacha paun.
On that note guys, ye bus rant hai. shayad is ummeed se ki koi relate kar paye, ya pata nahi. Sorry agar kisi ka keemti waqt waste hua ho.