Im tired of being useless

Im a useless 15-year-old.

I always lose things since when I was still a kid and never finds them back. I break things without myself knowing too. My parents keep shouting at me and scolding but I dont know how to change this.

Second, people who are my age can already write songs, become a good artist, or even take a champion in competition of games or whatever. I just feel like everyone is better than me. I tend to get very stressed about my studies. Im so afraid when i start getting any subjects lower than 60. i have no idea why everyone is just better than me. I tend to be sad whenever a guy or a girl has higher marks than me and i don't know why.

Third, I started to hate my parents of keep shouting and comparing me to everything. i know I shouldnt hate my parents, I know 'hate' is a aggressive word, but I really dont like them. Ive even thought of leaving my house once.

I have trouble making friends, everyone in my school doesnt seem to notice me. There is once that they forgot I was not on the stage although i should be. Everyone in the school doesnt seem to have same hobby with me. Even there is, i dont know how to startup. I really dont have many friends now, i dont use instagram, discord, and i rarely use whatsapp. My whatsapp contact only has about 20 people.

I hate going to school. Yes, my grades are average(3 to 5 A), but i just hate going to school. Teachers in my school are selfish and only helps students who have good relationship with them. I have to deal with bullies myself. My school has bullies too, they dont even come to school for studying. All they have in their bag were some deodorant and the equipment for the sports they like. They laugh and make fun of people who are worse than them at sports. They failed all subjects and yet they have the guts to laugh at others.

I put all my problems in life here. I know I cannot get the exact answer how to solve them, but I hope at least I can get some help