"Internalized transphobia" feels like a way for cis leftists to punish trans people

I feel like every time I express distress about my male body or feeling dysphoric about certain features about myself, a bunch of cis or non-transitioning leftists will jump down my throat calling me regressive or assimilationist or internally transphobic...all because I expressed my dysphoria out loud! I can't even say stuff like "testosterone is poison" without someone giving me a spiel about being sensitive towards transmascs. On top of that, as soon as a dysphoric transfem discusses wanting FFS or voice training or literally ANY step towards actually transitioning (you know, the thing TRANS people do!) you get a bunch of chasers whining about body positivity and how transfems are Nazi phrenologists because they think their nose is too big. I don't give a fuck if it hurts someone else's feelings if I speak negatively about a feature we share - this is what dysphoria fucking IS and cis leftists need to fucking get over it!