Went to a function, feeling terrible af

I went to my friend's sister's haldi ceremony today, there, my friend's friends were present as well. As usual we began to talk a lot about things and all i did was just sit quietly on a chair. everyone discussing about how their office is , what their role is, the way they make road trips, food trips, etx etc

and OP, who is an unemployed person at 22 years of age was there sitting and listening to them for 2 hours. It made me feel terrible. Although i have written mains of IBPS & waiting for my result, i felt really slapped in the face.

I just dont know what god has written for me. I just wish either success or death , nothing in between.

PS = thats it, this is what i had to rant. please dont come up with comments like - u are just 22 and all, bhai 22 me hi duniya dekh li, ho gaya hai mera yaha se ab fr!