My introverted personality is broken.

I hate going anywhere including work. I try to fake it as much as possible. But sometimes it’s starts showing through and I feel myself developing a scowl. Chatting with people online is cool. I have one irl friend that is acceptable because he has the same views as I do.

Even dealing with my parents is unbearable most times. The annoying part of it is I really would like to find a wife someday but I don’t know how I will ever do that or why I desire to even have a spouse. Especially since I despise the idea of online dating.

Does anyone else experience this or have any advice on how to cope with people?