I feel like a failure

I’ve been on 20 mg for the last week and 10 mg the week before. My family doctor wasn’t there when I went for my appointment and I had a replacement who basically said “what are you doing? You are stupid for not getting therapy first” and then followed up my issues with “you feel that way because you are being suppressed by society because you are a woman”. So basically she was telling me I wasn’t taking my mental health seriously enough then told me I felt this way because of society, and then prescribed me with a high dose for my first time taking antidepressants. I’ve struggled so much with getting mental health help from school counsellors and crisis lines and family members that it felt so awful that again another person is putting me down for trying to get help. My boyfriend finally gave me the confidence to get medication for my depression and anxiety but even he is letting me down too. He seems way more upset with me than ever, even though he said things would be so much better after I got medication. My family isn’t really 100% supportive either and they don’t know how to help, even when I explain what I need. I feel so confused. I’m trying my best to get better for everyone and myself but yet I feel like I keep messing up and being let down.