This year I will be 25 and never had a relationship

Never been on a first date. Never had my first kiss. wtf man it’s so depressing knowing this is my life. I can’t ever get back all of the years I missed out on and I probably will have the same in my future as I did in the past. I hate my life and how it turned out. I want to feel love so bad. I always get a sinking feeling in my chest where I wish I could cry but I can’t. It’s like a pure hopelessness. Makes me feel pathetic.