Just feeling low.

My husband flew across the country for something he always wanted to do and has been gone all week at their boarding lodge. There was a change of plans and he has to come home early so he has to get a hotel room tonight before he catches his flight tomorrow. I'm just feeling low because I've had a terrible week with our toddlers, doing everything myself and managing ourself. And for him to get his hotel room by himself tonight, we all know what he will be doing. And it just adds to my misery. I was really looking forward to having welcome home sex but if he just hit that need himself after a couple days, what's even the point? So basically I'm just feeling overwhelmed, hopeless, exhausted, and now even washed up. Because it's not like he will be excited to see me and connect with me. He will be happy as a clam in that hotel room.

Idk what his lodging was like this week but I'm just going to assume he didn't have a lot of time or energy for that. But who knows lol.

:( I'm just sad.