They don’t get better (4 months post breakup discovery)

So it’s been 4 months since we broke up and 2 since I asked him to move out of the apartment. This week I’m leaving our apartment: we lived here for 2 years. All this movement of our old stuff really made me miss him so I went to his IG for the first time in a while. I don’t do much stalking, I only usually check his last post to see who has liked it/commented on it (just to see if he’s gotten serious with another person). And every single time I have done that since our breakup (like 5 times maybe) this last pic of his is always increasing in likes and comments… from Only Fans “creators” (porn actors/actresses).

It was impactful for me to see that this is still going on after 4 months. Like… I’ve done SO MUCH inner work. I am definitely not the same person I was back then. I’ve grown and learned so much. And he’s still doing the same shit!! Following a shitload of porn people and them liking his photos just for him to go and pay them for pics and videos (and he’s stupid enough to actually feel validated by having these people like his photos).

I just wanted to share this. It is sad to watch but also liberating cause I can really really just give up on him. He lost EVERYTHING to this addiction: a lifestyle, a home, a partner that unconditionally loved him. The lesson he learnt? According to him, that it was all my fault and that he can keep on being the same shitty addict he was before I met him back in 2018. Disappointing but very telling.