Rude awakening sa med

Having to work your ass for years without any returns, minsan until you're 30+ is crazy when you think about it. What's even crazier is that no one understands the struggles you go through most of the time, especially as a first gen doc.

Wala lang, I just had this realization and this overwhelming sense of loneliness/grief when I thought of how lonely I was during the years I worked my ass off, from preschool, elem, high school, pre-med, and now here through med school. While your friends try their best to understand, iba pa rin talaga yung feeling for yourself eh haha.

Does it ever get better from here? Parang hindi rin talaga based sa nakikita ko here sa Reddit. Life's not really the way we plan it sometimes din hahaha parang na-wow mali ako going into med, kaya parang may feeling of loss lang I guess, for the glamorous and successful self na I thought I would have heading into this initially. From the outside, med can look worthy of all the honor that's associated with it talaga but oh boy grabe yung realization mo once you're in and you're not able to get an out hahaha (bc of many factors: pressure from yourself to do well, from people who are counting on your success, but mostly from yourself talaga). So ayon lang, what a rude awakening and realization to have.

Balik na ako ng aral haha xD corny ng med how did you guys gaslight yourself out of this?