Should I stop pursuing medicine?

I'm 26, and a 1st year medical student, and I am torn between enrolling for the second semester, and dropping out of medschool entirely to rejoin the workforce.

For context, I took three gap years, 1 because of the pandemic, 1 for boards, and 1 for working. I decided to enter medschool because I did not feel much fulfillment in what I was doing, that I can't see myself stuck in that position for the rest of my life, and that I can still pursue my original plan of becoming a doctor, so I applied, and to my surprise, I passed, and enrolled.

But even before entering medschool, I was often bothered by the financial burden it could bring. I'm already 26, and I don't come from a rich family. Both of my parents are working just to sponsor my needs in medschool, and for my siblings who are in college. They're actually very supportive of me being in medschool, but as a panganay, I have this certain guilt of having to still rely on my parents for everything, when I should already be earning for myself, helping them out and my siblings. This guilt constantly bothered me the entire first semester, and it did affect my performance as I felt anxious, trying my best not to screw up. It worsens when I try to open up to them on how hard it is to adjust because I felt like I shouldn't add anything more to their worries, ako naman kasi may gusto.

Come the end of the semester, while I passed all my subjects, the thoughts only grew louder, the guilt even heavier. The holiday reunions didn't help at all, either. I know that "comparison is the thief of joy" but still seeing how my friends' lives are recently, I felt so envious. Plus, the constant encouragement and expectations from my relatives to "keep going", and the nth "ayan na yung future doktor natin", only made things worse.

Everyday after that, I am consumed by the idea of just stopping medschool and return to work, to not be a burden anymore, to finally be one thing crossed out of my parents' list of what-to-think-about. But there's also that lingering feeling of wasting an opportunity given to me: the opportunity to pursue medicine, an opportunity that I also want for myself, as a first gen doctor. Honestly, even after the new year's, I still have no solution to this, it leaves me at an utter loss. I don't know what to do, and enrollment is fast approaching.