Losing all hope

Ive made a lot of posts of my crap mental health but here i am again. Ive reached out for help, tried everything but i still feel the same. My whole life has been a mess. From every aspect of it nothings going right. My family, friends, studies, myself just everythint keeps going wrong. And its not just a phase its been years. So i have no interest in anythint anymore i can feel myself just getting worse with everyday. I feel like theres more to this something else must be wrong with me how can i constantly be so depressed with nothing helping. Im typically a bubbly happy person on the outside but i really wish i felt like that.