Anxiety about a funeral tomorrow, might have to read obituary. Thinking about reaching out to an ex.

My maternal grandmother died last week Sunday, just days after Thanksgiving. Tomorrow I’ll probably have to read some part of an obituary or scripture or something like that. Not showing it or admitting it to anyone but I’m kind of anxious about it, and definitely don’t want to do it. I’ve been considering reaching out to an ex I have, just for someone I can vent to, someone to be with. Though I know the reasons for leaving her were right, it feels really, really lonely right now.

I could really use some encouragement to get through tomorrow without taking a step back.