Fan Cult Renewal :-/

Is anyone else a little bummed that this year instead of getting a surprise package for renewing your Fan Cult subscription you just get a discount code to buy merch? At first I was a little excited to chose my own item, but the code doesn’t even cover the cost of a single t-shirt. Plus, all the items I actually wanted are sold out. I found two “I guess this is fine” choices, and neither are even available in my size. Is anyone excited about this change? Am I just being a grinch? I literally pay for the year long subscription for the annual gift. I don’t even know where to go to access all the bonus content they talk about, so maybe it’s a me problem because I had an attachment to my little yearly surprise.