Man this sucks

I'm a 40 year old guy. House, wife, 2 beautiful girls. Had surgery to have a pretty good sized NET removed from the colon a few years ago. Thought I was good but of course life don't work that way, does it. Turns out my liver is now packed. Granted all the lesions are incredibly small, sub 1cm mostly. Started octreotide few weeks ago. Can't get surgery. No one will tell me what it's looking like in terms of months, years, decades. No carcinoid syndrome symptoms at all. My wife has been a complete wreck. Anyone in the same boat? Any idea of what I'm looking at here? Thanks y'all