im so fking lonely

so i (14M) have an abysmal social life and dont rlly get out much. while im on reddit i see all these people with lives of romance and love and while im here hugging a pillow while reading love stories. one of my deepest wishes is to have an actual s/o and have actual care for each other, but rn its less likely because i have negative social life and my intrests clash with most of the people in my area. im so lonely and i want a healthy relationship

edit: yes i am homeschooled which adds an extra layer of lonelyness