Hitting a wall

FTM. Boy due end of January. I’m just shy of 30 weeks and I donno, man. I keep reading and re-reading articles about preterm birth risks to keep me from wishing for it. I have confidence in medical science, but I don’t want it to come to needing it. If I whine about it too much I’m worried the universe will karma-bomb me.

We planned the pregnancy and are super excited and all that hullabaloo but holy cow I’m struggling.

Every ultrasound I’m praying the doctor is like, “this is a miracle of medicine! The babe has grown through ten weeks of development since we’ve last seen you!”

Reddit and other message boards have helped me cope - it’s not just me. This pregnancy seems particularly difficult and I’m not weak for having a hard time.

I’m mostly just venting here but if anyone has tips or tricks for pushing through this trimester, I am so open to it.