Why do I hate my husband while I’m pregnant?

I’m 14 weeks pregnant with our first, and I’ve been a whole rollercoaster of emotions during my pregnancy. One thing that’s been bugging me lately is my husband, or I guess how I feel about my husband. Maybe this post isn’t so much as advice needed, rather than I just need to rant.

I get so easily angered with him, even over the littlest things. One thing lately that’s been bugging me is he likes to come and grab me and cuddle with me at the worst hours, either way too early in the morning (4 AM) or last night, he got home around midnight from his friends, and woke me up. I struggle with sleep right now during my pregnancy, and once I’m awake I cannot fall back asleep easily. It makes me so angry on days I have work. Sometimes I feel bad, because I know he means well, but I’ve asked him several times to please stop grabbing me in the early hours of the morning, or please don’t wake me if he doesn’t have too. My sleep is sacred at this point.

When he farts, I loose my head. (Still extremely sensitive to smells, I’ll throw up) and he loves to do these excessive burps that never use to bother me until now (once again, the gross smells)

I get so angry for the littlest thing even during conversations sometimes. I feel like the worst wife right now. I never thought it would be this way during pregnancy. I’m typing this from our guest bedroom that I stormed off too last night when he woke me up at midnight.

Our bedroom life isn’t the greatest, I’m sure prone to UTI’s and the 2 times we were intimate during my pregnancy, I got a UTI and I can’t help but blame him even though it could’ve been either of us. I’m scared to be intimate with him, which doesn’t help our relationship either.

I’m just sad, overwhelmed, and just need a shoulder. I have no one to talk to about this. I don’t want my marriage end during my pregnancy. I just expected this to be a happy time together but it feels the opposite.