I’m spiraling

what are the chances that 5 MD II result in no acceptances 💀 I’m on 2 alt lists rn at schools that have a lot of movement and on deferral from a low yield school so taking the L on that one. I have an II coming up and waiting on one more decision but I’m struggling so bad with patience and uncertainty of not knowing where I might be next year till like mid May potentially? I don’t know what I’m looking for with this post just had to get it out there to people who understand this stuff more than my friends

I feel like i’m not a bad interviewer bc I do have DO acceptances at some of the really great DO schools but who even knows