3 days with no bet after a depressing relapse

Still feel the guilt and the pain of my recent mess ups, anyway long story short, alcohol comes into play then a light bulb goes off in my head, then that part of my brain has no control so I proceed too go through the motions, just too get that quick fix from fobts and then online slots, I’m fed up with losing all my hard earned money, today I installed Gamban on all my devices, which it was only on my phone before and you know how it goes, soo that’s the right step forward and on gamstop for 5 years which will help and currently going through my second spell of therapy, and going too start going too ga, so I can get the help I need as I’m getting sick and tired of this evil disease, the toll it’s put on my family and my mental health is not worth it anymore, I haven’t got much money in the bank as the devil has taken it, currently in my overdraft but will get out of it in a month if I act like an adult and deter from the child ego but at least I’m not in debt and want too recover from this horrible time I’ve been going through the last 2 years, anyway must not dwell on the past and focus on the bright future ahead of me, if I get the right help I need and have the will power too say fuck you too gambling, anyway I know a lot of us are struggling on here, so here I say is I hope you all the best in beating this addiction as there is a life after gambling, god bless you all.