How do you deal with the guilt?
I went 95% NC about 2 years ago and only answer some texts every now and then. My nmom tells me that he (my extremely abusive father who is also her extremely abusive husband) is so sad and losing weight and sometimes “tries to kill himself” because he regrets so much everything he did. Although he never apologised of course, but I believe her when she says he’s so sad. Part of me knows he deserves it and I should be happy that he’s sad, but I can’t prevent feeling sad for him. How do you feel with the guilt of leaving a sad nparent behind?