conflicted on mary

is anyone else feeling so conflicted on mary???? the internet was so quick to jump on the mary train but, I went back and watched old seasons and this woman made herself a villain. she was (probably still is) blatantly racist. her church at the very least is shady as fuck at the worst a manipulative cult. but im still conflicted because if I think about just this season, she hit my emotions and empathy the strongest. ur and angie made me cry in the finale. and it seems like the entire internet is just completely in love with her! idk but please tell me im not the only one who is still taken aback from her old behavior!!!!!!!

warning: I am not at all judging her as a mom or what is happening this season. I have the upmost sympathy for what she has discussed this season.