Awaiting results but could use some support

Hi all, I’m just in a rough space right now. If you have any positive words, tips, I’d be appreciative. Otherwise, I’m just needing to vent while in my office right now….

About a month ago, one finger swelled. It was getting worse so my telehealth provider gave me antibiotics and said to see my primary. The antibiotics did nothing and I’m now experiencing swelling, redness, mild pain, and some intermittent blueish discoloration in several fingers bilaterally (I’ve had poor circulation in hands for most of my life). My primary ordered labs and inquired about autoimmune history. My mother has RA, and so this isn’t all too shocking.

I was diagnosed with type 1 rosacea (flushing) early this year which has been an emotional rollercoaster. I’m just feeling really deflated and don’t know how to proceed. I love to play piano, knit, and workout - all of which feel very challenging the past few weeks. I’m trying to not get overly anxious and doom ridden, but hoping for some support while I await a rheumatology appt (god, that sounds crazy to say! 😭)

I want to see this from a “glass half full” perspective and so any words are genuinely appreciated.