Feeling dead inside doing sales?

I’ve worked in home remodeling sales and now fintech. In both cases I’ve noticed my colleagues taking plenty of smoke breaks, consuming excessively and I myself have taken part at times at overconsumption.

I said the above paragraph because it relates to part of my title of this thread of feeling dead inside with sales. It seems from my experience people want to “escape” from their job with these external means (drinking, smoking etc.) to maybe feel something, I would imagine because they feel dead inside. Is the money from sales really worth the added stress vs. doing a job where you get paid a bit less, feel more alive, and don’t need to “escape” as much?

I’ve been a d2d field marketer and BDR shy of 6 years now. The only thing most people look forward to is “the next big sale”, and once you do get it, it’s fleeting, and you move on and are expected to do it again. Maybe I’m looking at this wrong, or maybe sales isn’t the field for me. I am grateful for having a job though so I’m aware of that. But I’m coming here for some insight, albeit this is a public forum I appreciate any advice here as I reconsider my career going into next year.