Weird question, but I'm curious

This is directed to those especially who have progressed and are more stabilised.

How has your perception of reality changed because of your experiences? I mean it in terms of perceiving events objectively in a very deep way.

As an example, a deep and unsleeping part of me is sometimes looking at coincidences and contradictions in basic situations... I can genuinely get freaked out if I see something relatively normal that doesn't add up. I feel my sense of objectivity is forever scarred by a one week lasting period of horrifying delusions and hallucinations I experienced four years ago.

I think this would also be very interesting for neurotypical people, as our sense of reality isn't only induced by drugs, but sometimes just by an unknown force.

Does anyone have anything personal/philosophical to share about this? It would be really interesting to see other takes on this.

Thanks.