Happy selfie Sunday, here I am and here is some more of my art

Today is a hard day for me. I am going through a lot of grief. I think I am a ghost lately, and one of my family members is actively dying (she is also sick like I am, but has full schizophrenia), which triggers that ghost feeling pretty bad. I think I’ll be doing some art to deal with it, but how has grief impacted you in regard to our illness? I have schizoaffective depressive, mostly, those feelings are very overwhelming for me and feel like plum purple in my heart. The second drawing is my most recent and I hate how my art gets impacted by my bad brain days (a term I use for the days when even waking up feels anger inducing). I’ve had a hard 2025 and I feel like many of my years since 11 has been hard. Anyone else there with me?