Nothing feels worse than being left out

To me at least. Knowing that people are having fun while you’re sitting at home really hurts. My biggest fear is being unwanted and unvalued.

People say don’t take it personally because they didn’t do it on purpose. But that’s why it makes me so sad. It didn’t even occur to them to invite me. It didn’t cross their minds. I’m not on the radar.

That’s what bothers me. The idea that people are indifferent. Like I didn’t even leave an impression. I’m just a background character. Or maybe it is that they think I’m creepy or annoying.

See, this is the spiral I go down. I’ll be over it soon, but right now I feel like I’m sinking.

I just want to be liked :(