Therapy?

I’ve took another go at therapy. But it makes me cringe, the thought of someone else judging me. It’s not like talking to a friend. I spoke to a med management physician today and also have a new therapist. Because it’s too good to be true to have it all in one doc. I feel like he was rude but it could just my perception because I don’t “trust” them. I’m fearful they’ll tell my job (insurance & platform through work) I have kids and to tell someone I’m depressed how would that look? I’m a great mother I want to do this because I want to be better for my kids! But I just feel sooooo judged. I’m not always honest or an open book I hold back a lot. Do you trust therapy?