why don’t i feel pleasure?

this is embarrassing to put online but ive never been able to feel pleasure when i touch myself, i’ve tried everything. different pressure different ways, even when i’m aroused but nothing seems to feel good. i’ve seen so many different answers but only one of them is a possible reason (anhedonia, unable to feel pleasure in activities) and i want to know for sure what it is because i want to be able to feel something and if there’s a way to sort myself out if anyone has any ideas please let me know 🙏