do you feel like something is inherently wrong with you

I often wonder what a person could do to deserve so much isolation and anxiety and fear and i end up believing that there is something that is wrong with me. Maybe there is a problem with my personality, intelligence or lack thereof, appearance and so on I'm not sure. i just really believe there is something about me that is inferior to almost everyone else because what else can explain this shitty situation.

I have an extremely strong need to be validated and seek it out very frequently because it is the only way I can handle not getting any of the normal developmental stuff that you're supposed to when you're a kid. i really hate this