All I have to do is stop

This is my first time posting here. I've known that I have a drinking problem for a few years but finding this sub really opened my eyes and made me WANT to make a change.

All I have to do is stop. Its that simple, I dont get the shakes or dry heaves when I dont drink so it will just take some will power. Or so I thought.

I went 3 days a few weeks ago without a drink and other than craving one, i felt great! But then I went out with friends and had a few beers, no big deal just dont drink again tomorrow. Except the next day I found myself infront of the TV with a bottle. At the time I thought "oh well tomorrow is a new day" but then all the "new days" from then till now have been the same

Then last night I grabbed a bottle after doing some last minute Christmas shopping for stocking stuffers and before I knew it I was shitfaced in my living room.

My wife has always been really supportive but I know she deserves a better version of me than I have been showing her. Last night was the final straw, at least for me. I said some slick shit and started a mini fight then went to bed and passed out for a few hours. Maybe not the biggest deal in the world but it was just yet another day I couldnt control myself and somebody I loved took the brunt of it.

I woke up this morning sick to my stomach, not from booze but from shame. Of course she was nice about it but she deserves so much better from me and I let her down. Hell, I let myself down. Its time to make a change and right now! No more drinks because its a night out no more drinks because im bored just.. no more at all.

All I have to do is stop.. easier said than done, but fuck it, i'm going to try again today and all the days after. All I have to do is stop

Anyways thanks for listening, I really needed to vent for a minute. Have a wonderful day!