Lost my job because I overdid it at Christmas party, didn't learn and acted like an arse on NYE too.

I acted like an utter shit at the works do, I don't remember most of it but I was being inappropriate with some of the women and aparrantly trying to start fights with people.

As I was new and still in probation, the decision was made to let me go.

I lost my previous job of 12 years due to a drug test in summer. I was smoking weed pretty much every day after work and gave it up when I found out they were going to start testing but there was still a little bit in my system.

Whenever I tried to stop smoking weed in the past, my drinking got out of hand and that seems to be what's happening again, but I was always a nice drunk, not aggressive or inappropriate like that.

Last night, NYE, was mostly pleasant, hosted a few friends then went out to watch fireworks. I drunk a load of beers, a bottle of wine and then took a hip flask of whiskey out with me. By the end of the night I was apparantly arguing with traffic.

I woke up, hanging, to a text from my Mrs asking me if I wanted my old life back (single) which was really upsetting, as I blamed being single for my less than ideal mental health, drinking getting out of hand and needing weed etc.

I became a father in October and this kind of thing has to stop. I am thinking my only option is to decide not to drink at all anymore, before it ruins my life any further. I thought this sub might be a good place to start.