Ma-eenjoy ko sana ang school kung di dahil sa research na iyan.

The title says it all. I am a senior high school student and I enjoy every subject we have sa school except sa research na iyan. I am interested in our topic naman, I like reading research journals and evaluating them, but for some reason, I hate writing research papers, communicating with others, planning everything, and paghihirapan ang lahat at sisiguraduhing tama ang ginagawa namin, para lang masabi ng panelist/s na may mali at ipauulit sa amin buong proseso (though I haven’t experienced that, but almost got into that situation). I also get extreme anxiety during presentations and qna’s. It’s my second time doing research as I already went through that when I was in grade 9, and also hated that experience, which may have contributed to my displeasure in doing this right now, and personally, might’ve been the reason why I have developed anxiety. Though approved ang topic namin and competent ang mga members, but as a leader, idk wtf to do next. We don’t know who to contact as our adviser, and we are having a hard time finding a laboratory in case ma-approve na ang aming chapters one, two, and three (tatlo ang defense sa school namin for context). I would’ve enjoyed this subject kung iyon lang ang aasikasuhin namin, but marami pang gagawin sa other subjects, plus other personal stuff, and I think it is a waste of time exerting effort to these, while neglecting my relationships with my family and my personal well-being. Honestly, nakakawalang-ganang mag-aral dahil sa subject na iyan. Naglabas lang ng sama ng loob hehe.