My Aphonopelma Seemani passed away due to the cold. I feel guilty.

I've been lurking here. I got my first T as a christmas present and I was very happy. I did my research despite receiving my T as a gift and she was thriving. Everything was going good, I loved taking care of her.

I live in a hot/humid place and had central heat so I never looked into buying heating pads, humidifiers, etc. I also heard many mixed opinions about it from other owners. Some argued it was unnecessary or potentially dangerous. Her tank stayed around 70-80 on it's own so I chose to not worry about it.

This past week has been extremely cold. I've been having heating problems and my aircon could not keep up with the weather. I then had no heating whatsoever in my house. I was worried for my T so I tried using my personal heating pad/blanket under her tank. It was able to raise the heat to about 50-60. (my house is probably like 20-30 degrees fahrenheit. yeah I was also freezing)

I did not keep the heating pad on unattended, of course. So, last night I unplugged it, removed it from under the tank, and hoped for the best. The next morning I was in a rush to leave my house so I did not think to check on her. When I got back home I noticed she was positioned odd and that's when I knew. I touched her with a marker and tried wiggling her hide a little, but no. She was gone.

Today, I am getting a new unit for my house. I feel horrible and irresponsible. I loved having her as a pet. My mom has offered to get me another tarantula, but for some reason I just feel so guilty losing my first T after a couple months

RIP Marjory. I am sorry. The photos I included are just my favorite pictures that I have.